Current mood:

stressed

Not just another update

     Well crap. Well this is my 2nd run through..lol. Awesome download of the yahoo toolbar made me have to start over. So anyways…

     How is everyone??!?! Lol. Well I'm doing alright. I can't really say I have been doing "so many new things" or anything, but I mean heck School and Work is hard enough to keep track of. Then you have to think of Sara and God, which brings me to what I'm gonna talk about. I keep putting God on the back burner so-to-speak. He is supposed to our bff and what do we do? Never talk to Him, but when we need Him. If we did that with our friends, heck, they would tell us off in a minute. Where have you been?…Why haven't you called?…lol. that might even sound familiar with a boyfriend or a girlfriend. 

     What I'm trying to get at is, we have to bff's with God. It can't just be this simple "Oh hey God…." And then move on kinda deal. We have to get serious. Something that Rick says (my step-dad) is "You can spend 2hrs on the phone with Sara and 15 min with God? Something doesn't sound right." It honestly shows where my heart is. I mean I love Sara, but who is first? Well in all honesty right now she is. I come on here to be honest, and I really hope everyone knows that. I'm not here to have a pity party or to get sympathy, but I mean I'm on here to relieve some inner pressure and most importantly spread the "good" news and help any person I possibly can. Also when I say these things…they def. include me too. I'm not preaching at you, I'm really preaching to myself and to see if you guys feel the same.

     Well I guess my entry is gonna be a bit about just about everything btw. Me and Sara's 1-yr anniversary is coming up. I can't wait. I have surprises in store; well I will talk about them completely in detail after the 21^st, which is our 1-yr btw. Lol. Uh let's see…what have I been doing since my last update you might ask?

     Well gosh, stuff here and there…uh..going to see Sara, going to school, going to church, working, and uh..the usual I guess..but really now I am just starting to get more serious with God. I know it's not going to be easy and I'm def. not bragging, cause I know what's in store. The devil doesn't want me to have a closer walk with God, so he will throw out everything he has on me, and it's gonna get insane literally. It's gonna be like this little hump I'm going to have to overcome with God's help for sure. So it will be like my trial period per say to see how dedicated I am and after that little time, of course I'll be tempted, but at least I will be stronger and ready to fight it stronger and harder.

     I'll tell yah addictions are just no fun. It's like you want to quit deep down, but your flesh loves it! And I do love having that kind of feeling, but I know that interrupts the relationship b/w me and God, and it's obviously a huge sin, even though sin is sin…anyways…lol. I know I'm rambling on, but I really don't have a huge aim to this entry, it's just me really going on and on about how I'm feeling at the present time. I just ask for your prayers, I really need them. Oh yeah-another huge thing I have come to find out is that we can't feel guilty over our sins. Lol..don't get me wrong. YES you should feel bad that you screwed up, but I mean don't go on every day, after you've asked for forgiveness, all beaten up. It says "There is no condemnation in Christ Jesus…" and that Satan is the condemner of the brother. What that means is God doesn't want you to mope around after you messed up. You have to move on! That's a huge thing I've learned. If I mess up I ask for forgiveness and take him at his word when he says, "He is faithful and just to forgive."     

     Honestly if we do mope around and feel bad we are calling God a liar because we are saying "God I don't believe you've forgiven me" Don't get me wrong at all guys, believe me I have felt like crap before and really horrible and nasty. That's the thing though, we shouldn't after we've asked for forgiveness because are a new creation…we are wiped clean. It's hard to imagine in reality, but we are. We have to take God at His word and believe we are now forgiven and should move on. Now on the other hand don't take this and say well Josh said I can do whatever I want now and just not feel bad…heck no. I'm saying if you have a big problem with just about whatever, like my good friend Matt reminded me the other day, take it to God. He wants you to cast all your cares upon Him and also to make positive steps to help your problem. I'm simply saying if you sin, don't beat yourself up forever. Ask for forgiveness….HONESTLY MEAN IT TOO…and move on. 


     Think about this…I don't know if everyone knows this story in the bible but I'll give it a quick go-through. Jesus was teaching to a group of people when all of a sudden this mob of people brings this lady before Him and says Jesus what do with this lady we caught her basically messing around with another guy, being a prostitute. They all had stones in their hands and asked Jesus as to what they should do to the woman. They all obviously wanted to kill her by stoning. He replied after a bit and said, "He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her." Surprisingly enough everyone walked away. He bent down to talk to her and picked her up and told her to "Go and sin no more." He had forgiven that lady. Adultery/prostitution is just as sinful now, after Jesus forgave the woman of it, as it was before He forgave her. He will forgive us all our sins -- past, present, future -- if we are humble enough to ask believing. But He will not excuse any sin. All behavior that is sinful before forgiveness is still sinful after. More intolerance. And righteously so.

     Now that I'm on the subject, I've seen people that call themselves Christians but everyone knows they definitely aren't. Also that "do not judge lest ye be judged" well honestly that is referring to judging unfairly, like not looking at yourself first before going out talking crap. But hey, I have admitted my sins, openly to, not saying that's better, but I'm saying that in a way gives me a right to "judge" in a way, but not to criticize. And if you want a scriptural backup to that I'm pretty sure it was John who said, "A righteous man judges all things" What does that tell you? John walked with God; he knew what was going on. Why would he say that? Because he didn't want people to become accepting and "tolerant" to everything that came along just to fit in. If we call ourselves Christians, by God we better act and live like it. How dare you call yourself a Christian if your gonna go out and party and get drunk and have sex and whatever your flesh likes. That's called living in the flesh, not following after God. Believe me though, I can understand if you started smoking or something..like drug use and you can't quit and you're trying to overcome something, that's entirely different. But when you think you can just apply the title "Christian" to yourself because you believe in God, you're a joke and you're living in one.

     Being a Christian is so much more than just believing in God. It says in the word, "even the devil believes in the word and trembles" Is he a Christian? No. Exactly. So how could we call ourselves Christians for just believing? I mean come on, call wrong, wrong people. We have to be "doers" of the word not just hearers. If you want to be called a Christian, then live it 24/7 not just when you're at church or just at home. God sees you even if your Christian buddies or parents don't. I'm sick of people that call themselves Christians and don't live it. Why even? Yah know? And for those who think "Oh I'm a good person God knows" hah..lol…who are you kidding? I could give a million dollars to feed the children, feed kids in Africa, and just give all my time to helping others, but you know what…I would still go to Hell. OMGSH did he just say I would go to hell? Lol..yeah I sure did. It doesn't matter how "good" you are. Shesh I mean in the word it says that "no man is good" A good book for you to read would be Revelation.

(Matthew 7:21-22)
"Not everyone who says to Me, 'Lord, Lord,' shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day, 'Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?'"

     Yeah so it's saying Look you may do a million good things but if I'm not involved in them your wasting your time. So next time you think you're a good person think again. "There is no man good." Think about it.

     WE ARE NOT GOOD. Powerful stuff. No matter how good the world makes you believe you are. We aren't. That doesn't mean we stupid and worthless by any means. Because we created in the image of God to worship and please Him. But I mean we are all sinners is what I mean.

     I think my rant may be over…but I mean time is short people. Something real quick that my youth leader and me found out. I found out that the 7 in the bible means "Completion" and she found out the 8 means "New Beginnings." 2007? 2008? Yeah…interesting =) that's just something really cool I thought I would share. Continuing on…we have to get serious for God. We don't have forever to live and Heaven and Hell hang in the balance. I care about you guys and gals. I love you all honestly. I love helping people and talking to them when they have issues and want to come to me. It makes me thank God that I have the ability to give advice and to know what to do in a lot of situations. Well anyways…

     I am going to Sara's tomorrow to spend the whole day with her. Going to church with her and probably to her brother's house. Who knows, it'll be great to see her again. I miss her. It's hard to have a long-distance relationship and it def. puts strains on you for sure and also requires mucho dedication..

     As for today…I have no idea what the heck I'm going to do..probably something with mom or something..idk. I honestly haven't even asked mom if I can go tomorrow, but it'll all work out…I better run and get ready just in case. Love you guys and gals mucho!!

Bye for now,

Josh Bucklen.