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Quite Interesting..

Well good morning!!!

Gosh I’m out of it. I just woke up out of the blue here about 15 minutes ago (4:30am) from this extremely strange dream. I was at work (heavenly ham) and this lady wanted me to make her 3 sandwiches. For the life of me I could not make these sandwiches and nobody else would help me out, like they were all busy or something. This lady became more and more impatient until I guess forever later, I finished. I woke up and just felt really weird...trying to make sense of it I guess.

I though about going back to sleep and I might actually. Idk I felt like I should write something in here. I feel so strongly about a lot of things..and gosh I feel a huge novel of a blog coming on, lol. Also come to think of it..I really feel a lot more when it’s late at night/very early morning, so that’s the best time for me personally to blog.

Well here it goes.....

Yesterday I went to Wal-mart to pick up some stuff for my mom. Well I had stopped at BK right before that to get some food. Well I sat in the parking lot when I got to wal-mart and ate. Well when I started eating I noticed this girl about 20 yrs old or so. Well I didn’t think anything of her, just noticed her getting in her larger than life truck. Well she went to push her buggy back into those things out on the parking lot and I noticed she left her cans of Mt. Dew, lol. So I was like "hey you left your Mt. Dew cans on your buggy" she goes "oh gosh I did?" lol...so she runs back and gets em and then walks back and says "Thanks he would have Bi***ed" I laughed it off and said "wouldn’t want that" then she left.

I didn’t really realize the severity of what she had said until she had left. She said this guy, most likely her live-in bf would have gotten mad. Over what now? Forgetting the Mt. Dew. I know some of you are like..oh gosh Josh make it an issue...whew. Well it is. I mean the treatment of women is crazy! I’ve noticed it first-hand and you can’t say you haven’t either, especially if your a woman yourself. Women are not objects. Women are not slaves. Women should be treated as equals. I’m tired of seeing girls thinking they have to have sex just so their bf’s won’t "get mad" or just so they’ll love them. That’s pure insanity...no it’s pure manipulation. Women don’t need to be slapped on the butt either. Women don’t need to be lusted after.

That last one I’m guilty of (I’m sure you caught me on that right away) and I believe is a 2-way street too. Because girls share the responsibility of wearing appropriate stuff too. But I mean back to the butt slapping issue. How many times have you seen this going on? I’ve seen it tons! I wouldn’t dare do this, but guys see it as well I can do whatever I want b/c I’m a guy and she’s hot so I can do it. Actually it’s called sexual harassment. Girls, that attention is the wrong kind of attention..duh? It’s sexual harassment, that guy is gonna use you to fulfill his own lust, so stop it before it becomes a habit, cause it will!

I mean where are all the Godly men? I’m not saying every guy has gone to pot, cause I know that’s irrational and stupid, but seriously what has happened to the overall population? We have to stand up for what we believe in and stop being so "tolerant!!" The same goes for me too, just remember I’m always including myself too. Yeah tolerance is a joke. Did Jesus tolerate gays? liars? prostitutes? thieves? Absolutely not. I have no idea where people get the idea that God does. They give the excuse "God understands" yeah he understands that your deceiving yourself into believing what your doing is ok when it’s not. When God says their is a part in the lake of fire for like homosexuals, thieves, liars, etc...I don’t really take that lightly. Aka: Sin is sin. God forgave/forgives sin, never accepted/accepts it.

I know I have a problem. Believe me it kills me sometimes and I wonder where God is in all this. I wonder why I can’t just stop. I wonder why I have heart issues. I wonder why God puts me through all this. I wonder if when I die where I’m going. I’m not saying this out of the need to receive pity, it’s just true. I’m not doing real good at all. I need to take a stand and each and every time I get the chance I fail. I don’t blame God at all, although I would like some answers. I know when we go through hard junk that later on we can help people out with it. Like with my relationships I know have tons more of experience to help other people out with. I know it says no man is good. I know I have to put it in God’s hands. I know I can’t do it alone. I know all those things, but it’s just not happening. Will I lose the faith? I sure hope not. Cause if I do...I do believe tons will fall as soon as I do.

I’m not saying I’m anything great, but I know people look up to me and I find that humbling. Especially when I know how I am and what I do. Gosh I know I can resist doing drugs and fight hard against not having sex and stand up for what I believe in, but I fail. Yes I know everyone does, but I feel like I’m not worthy of much. It does make me go crazy just thinking about how Jesus went to the cross for someone like me. He died knowing I would screw up day in and day out. He was the only answer to my problem. Kinda like the x-factor ( Sins of the world + X = A way out) Jesus is the answer, lol. Yeah I like that. (What do you have to add to the sins of the world to give you a way out? Jesus=x, lol)

Anyways, so many things are tearing us from God and the greatest gift he’s ever given to the world, Jesus. I know personally I would rather talk on AIM or Myspace than read the Bible. It’s just honest truth, didn’t say it was positive. We let society norms, our friends, activities, all keep us from God. When we do start on the right track preachers on TV throw some off. Call in and donate to receive a blessing. What a joke!! I saw it on TV yesterday I was outraged. That’s not the gospel that’s "antichrist" another form of God. (not THE antichrist, btw) Something has to change with everything or we will just continue to fall down the pit of despair. One thing I’ve learned though. A girl or guy cannot provide what you need 100%, only God can. Get right with God before dating even comes in the picture.

You know why you feel like you have to break up and ultimately do? Because they can’t supply you with feeling good about yourself, they can’t provide you with peace of mind. That’s not what a partner does and it just can’t be their responsibility. If you don’t have the "MAN-GOD-WOMAN" bond, then you have nothing. If God’s not in b/w then you have a wavy line b/w the two. "MAN~~WOMAN" aka: not stable.

Another thing...this whole political race is getting crazy. Stop voting for Obama cause he’s black, stop voting Hilary cause she’s a woman and stop voting McCain cause he was a POW. That junk doesn’t matter. You had better look at their policies. Obama is scary look on his website. He’s a christian? Well that’s disputed but what I did find (on his website) was that his church was the first to ordain a homosexual pastor..hmm..church+Gay pastor=not on track? So if Obama is ok with this then obviously why he be in different in office? Exactly he wouldn’t. That and he’s pro-choice to even PARTIAL BIRTH!! whew. Clinton is just about the same in everything. Plus they don’t want to build the fence on the border, just one w/ cameras and junk. McCain I guess I’m voting for him cause he actually cares about marriage and abortions.  How can we as Christians vote for a candidate that believes in abortion? Ohhhhh you know why? Cause we see it as ok don’t we? Oh yeah I caught you on that.

So we do what we’ve always been taught the opposite to? Two wrongs don’t make a right? Apparently so. I’m not saying it’s a simple "ok keep the baby" situation. I’ve never been in it either ok? But I know killing no matter how well formed the baby is wrong. Ten commandments ring a bell? Thou Shall Not Kill? Anyways. Look at the candidates stances on issues not their outward appearance. Also don’t mind party lines, that’s the dumbest thing ever. I’m republican so the only good ones are republicans...that’s dumb. Vote for the most Godly man/woman.

If we are supposed to be the hands and feet of God then obviously we are doing a terrible job. We accept gays, accept abortions, accept any kind of preachers, accept the prosperity gospel, accept slams on Godly principals everywhere, accept marriage b/w anyone. Why are we so tolerant? Are we afraid of being called different? I mean it does say, "Now in fact all who want to live godly lives in Christ Jesus will be persecuted." Shocker? not really. We cannot and should not support these actions. You know why it sickens people? Whoa..maybe cause it’s wrong? You know what kills me? The excuse people give. "Oh well if they want to do it go ahead it doesn’t affect me."

What if I said..well I know your son or daughter has been cutting themselves and are very suicidal. Would you care? Well I would sure hope so. You care about your own but not strangers? Didn’t Jesus help the demon possessed, the sick, etc etc?....yes. Are we our brothers keeper? Absolutely. We are all humans so we should take care of each other. Everything in way or another affects us. Why can’t you take a stand on the issue? Gay marriage is wrong. There see I did it, lol. It does bother me, it does affect me! God hates sin, we are supposed to be like God (aka: Christian "Christ-like") so we hate what God hates.

Well another thing I don’t hate gay people, I don’t hate people that are pro-choice. I strongly disagree with them, but I don’t, and you shouldn’t, hate them. Just read what’s in the Bible, God is love but like any good father He punishes his children, if not he wouldn’t be a good father. ie: would he want us to all turn out like the "princesses" on Sweet-16...what a joke. We don’t enjoy what God has given us. I know I don’t. But I have figured out one important thing already, that some people take a lifetime to figure out or sometimes never figure out, "Money doesn’t buy happiness"

Seriously though the next time you come in contact with someone really see what’s going on. This world is not doing good. People are not doing good. Calm before the storm? Maybe. Jesus died for our sins. Not an ouch that hurts---dead. Kinda ordeal...he suffered for days, got thrown around, spit on, beaten, whipped, slapped, punched, flogged, had 3 nails drove straight through his hands and feet......he was barely alive, yet the two things he said----"Forgive Them" & "It is Finished"   What would we do? Probably fight. He knew what he had to do. If he didn’t do this all mankind would basically be doomed and have no one to turn to in the troubling times. Watch Passion of the Christ if you haven’t already seen it. It doesn’t even come close to the torture, but it’s powerful nonetheless.

Closing~~~

Something has to change. Guys can’t change us. Girls can’t change us. Only God can change us. Introspect yourself if you don’t see any obvious sin or ask God to reveal the secrets of your heart to you, He will. Don’t lie to yourself, God shows us what is sin and what isn’t in the Bible. Stand up for what is right. Don’t back down. Even though people might not see what your doing God always does. Be strong.

I love you guys and gals!
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+Ideas for blog topics would be cool!
+Ideas for font color, lol
+Still wanting people to go to Winterjam ’08 in Huntington on Thurs with!

..oh and really GOOD MORNING this time, lol!!!

((Josh Bucklen))