Current mood:

shocked

Spinning Constantly

I guess I’ll try to cut this down to size considering everyone like my small blogs. Life is sending me through hurdles like crazy. Idk I guess I was always used to seeing my friends everyday and feeling welcome and loved and now it’s just different. I do see em but not as often and I have to meet new people (which isn’t bad) but it’s just weird I guess.

It’s not really even that, that has me down...it’s just a combination of things I guess. I mean the medicine I’m ..s my heart rate but it makes me kinda worn out a lot easier. So in turn I don’t want to do anything and nothing gets done then I get aggravated. My motivation is completely gone. Sleeping doesn’t help, talking to people doesn’t help...

I wish I could write a happy blog for once, but I’m not really ever super happy. I’m not saying that’s what life is all about cause of course you aren’t going to be happy 24/7, but just once in a while I would like someone to want me to be around for the sheer enjoyment of me, and all of me. I guess that’s what I liked about having a gf, finding someone that actually wanted to be with me. People don’t even really listen to me when I talk..kinda like.."yeah alright"..."ok"..."gotcha"...I have a few close friends who do, but overall not so much.

People used to make me happy, but that isn’t the case anymore. Usually they do quite the opposite and make me unhappy. People in general are really not good and it’s just idk..heck the world is insane is on a constant moral decline...heck 1 in 4 girls have an STD. Teens committing suicide, doing drugs, partying....guys raping women, girls cutting themselves, kids running away from home, girls in abusive relationships, teens in home with an abusive father....

Of course the world has always been full of these people..but look at the statistics...you can’t deny that they are getting worse and worse every year. We are getting unhealthier, busier, more sinful, and more immoral. The thing that gets me is...I don’t care enough to stand up and fight it. Do you?

People have gotten so laid back about these issues it’s sickening. I think the devil knows if he would let me loose I would do great things for the Lord..or better yet...the Lord would do great things through me. He has me...and the majority of the teen population tied down and so caught up in garbage...and warped our minds we don’t see what’s going on..more less try to stop it. People don’t know that each and every day there is a "culture war" going on.

Homosexuals trying to become pastors, extend their rights throughout America, the government stopping christian things on government property (like the 10 commandments).

SIN IS OUT OF CONTROL IN AMERICA AND WE SIT BACK AND DO NOTHING.

I’m off topic, but I’ll end it here. Think about what I said. Are we living the right way for Christ? Do we laugh at the dirty jokes? Do we tell them? Do we do drugs? Do we live like Jesus would? (Speaking to my guilty self too)

The most powerful thing in determining right or wrong is def. "WWJD".

Love you guys,
Buck.